Some seriously strange things have been happening around the house in the last couple weeks, although I think a few are too personal and frankly, too bizarre to share publicly. Anyway, I had a massive shakedown cleansing of the house where I sage-smudged the everliving crap out of it, cleansed my crystals with sea salt in holy water (right from the River Jordan! No, seriously.) sprinkled sea salt around all the doors and windows… really went all out on this one.

The house feels amazingly better afterward, but during was a completely different story. I’ve never been one to believe in poltergeists and the like at all but when random things started toppling off shelves, I was spooked to say the least. It’s really really hard to repeat Bible verses and sing about faith when you’re looking at your first encounter with actual supernatural happenings. I mean, I’ve seen some things happen in meditation, but I’m always confident that they’re driven by love and light so it only freaks me out a little bit. The idea of being in the presence of aggressive evil is a little more than I was planning on experiencing.

:::shudder:::

Guh. This whole thing makes me sound like a crazy person. Whatever the case, the house is filled with light and seems a little better now. I just hope whatever it was is gone ’cause I’m not big on pooping my pants as an adult…

Since my entry pertaining to the total fraud I encountered within my spiritual practices (related - of course - to other people) I’ve been spending more time meditating, more time dedicated to reconnecting myself to Spirit and grounding myself in my personal relationship w/Him/Her. And, in my meditations and other readings, I started getting more and more intense premonitions and spot-on symbolism in my other means of communion.

(At first it really freaked me out - like, sleep-with-the-lights-on freaked out -, which I was embarrassed about. I mean, I’m running around proclaiming to believe in this sort of thing and then when it actually starts to happen and become tangible, I get scared? That doesn’t make sense. And then I realized that a lot of people are like that. A few months ago I was talking to Greg about Catholic miracles in which those taking the manmade tincture felt it change into flesh in their mouths and pulled bleeding, warm muscle matter off their tongues to show to the rest of the congregation. When I asked why they didn’t just continue eating it because that is, after all, what Catholics specifically believe - that the bread and wine physically is Jesus Christ and not just a symbol - he didn’t really have a decent answer except that there was shock and awe involved. I think that’s exactly what I’m experiencing as of late.)

And then I figured out what was going on. Four days before I went to this faux minister, I had a really intense session with my group in which I was tapped more accurately into my friends’ energies than ever before and was receiving strong validation for my readings. It was incredible. Then, after the reading from the minister set me back, the readings kept coming in strong and I realized that the whole thing must’ve been a test.

Through my life, every time people have gotten in the way of my spirituality, I’ve thrown in the towel and walked away from all of it, including my relationship with Spirit/God/whatever I called her at the time. This has happened in two separate major events, once when I was 18 and then again when I was 21-22-ish. This time, however, instead of running away when people pissed me off, I went back to the source and focused my energy on bypassing outside, human influence and that was new for me. I think God was testing me, saying “Alright, I’ve got some big stuff set up for you, but I’ve gotta know you’re on board with me this time.” And the minute I came back, I started getting even stronger feedback and staggering evidence that God was excited and proud of me and ready to get to work.

Again, it was sort of terrifying to see tangible evidence of the Spirit energy sitting dead (or alive…) in front of my face, but it was also incredibly rewarding to know that, finally, I chose the right adventure. Hooray!

So, in brief, things are incredible right now. On a number of levels, although this is the one that feels the best. Easily.