~ I’ve taken to washing my hair with DAWN with OxiClean (this requires a LOT of conditioner) to try to get some of the excess darkness out. So far it’s working but I have this sneaking suspicion that I’m going to be visiting a hairdresser (or hairdressing friend) in the near future.

~ After getting a swift kick in the britches that I want to get back on board with my crazy bohemian dreams, Greg and I have decided to actively start planning a trip to Transformus and then Burning Man in the next two years. We don’t know what exactly we’re going to bring to the table just yet but we’re sketching out ideas for cool art projects and other such insanity. This is one of those things that Greg really would never branch out and do on his own (because of stories of people having sex on the side of the road in Black Rock City) but once I showed him a couple videos of amazing art projects from years past (Again, the Flaming Lotus Girls’ “Serpent Mother” is just incredible. He was more impressed with the giant Walking Machine) and some photos my friend took this year of the view of Black Rock City, he seemed more open-minded to it and even really excited. This makes me very very happy.

~ I’ve splurged on something completely unnecessary and bid on this trapper hat. I don’t know what it is about autumn that makes me such an idiot about hats, but I’m a fan.

This makes me giddy.

~ As of next Thursday I will have been married for a whole year. The tenative plan for now is to find a babysitter and get a room at the Chapel Hill Inn for the night so we can spend a couple days roaming around Chapel Hill, maybe having dinner at the Ratskeller where my grandparents used to go on dates (and still one of the coolest places to eat anywhere) and visiting the Hillsborough Last Fridays Art Walk or going off to see an indie film or an art show or a comedy show or whoknowswhat. I’m looking forward to it heavily.

We ended up already exchanging gifts. He gave me a custom display case in which to mount the twisty-tie ring that he proposed to me with. (He will be coating it in a metallic enamel.) I made a Shutterfly-published wedding album of our big day, which took a lot of time but not nearly as much dough as printing out a couple hundred photos and then having them matted into an album. Plus, it’ll keep remarkably well!

~ Things aren’t necessarily amazing again but they’re definitely optimistic, although I have a great amount of fear and reservation that I’m trying to deflect. I hate to be vague and I’ve rambled about the specifics of what was troubling me to enough people in my personal life but I did make mention that there was something wrong so I wanted to follow up on that.